Part Seven – Shuji to Akira
Written 21.05.2007; Posted 27.07.2007
Kazuya felt annoyed.
Everything that Tomohisa did right now was getting on his nerves, even though he knew that it was probably not Tomohisa’s fault. Not totally anyway. It was partially his lover’s fault for springing a surprise visit and dragging him out on a date, spoiling the plans he had tonight.
It normally didn’t bother him, but at that moment in time, Tomohisa’s whole Kusano-Akira-has-taken-over-my-body act which was normally quite adorable was now plain irritating, and Kazuya felt like how Kiritani Shuji felt in the beginning.
He knew that he shouldn’t be behaving like a jerk though. It had been ages since the two of them last had a date, although it could never really feel like a real proper date when both were male and famous and in the public eye. Putting that aside, Kazuya knew that he should at least appear to enjoy himself.
Gee, he really was becoming a real life Shuji, wasn’t he? And as usual, Akira could see past the charade.
“What’s wrong?” Tomohisa asked Kazuya, worry etched onto his features. “Are you feeling alright?”
Kazuya was about to dismiss the other’s concerns when his eyes fell upon two people he really wasn’t in the mood to see right now. Across the street, he spotted Jin pulling Yuichi by the hand, heading towards a karaoke place just up ahead. Kazuya scowled.
“Kazu-chan?” Tomohisa nudged Kazuya when he didn’t get a response from his boyfriend, just a scowl appearing on Kazuya’s face instead. He followed Kazuya’s line of sight and saw what had gotten Kazuya’s attention.
Silence followed, before being broken by Tomohisa.
“Did… did something happen between you and Jin?”
Kazuya blinked, taken aback by the question and unsure about what Tomohisa meant. “Huh?”
“I mean, as in, did the two of you fight or something? Cos you look like you’re angry at him.”
“No, we didn’t fight. It’s kind of hard to have an argument with someone you hardly talk to, isn’t it?” Kazuya replied with a wry smile. He couldn’t deny though, that he was mad at Jin.
Tomohisa winced, before changing the subject. “C’mon, let’s go back. You look tired. You were so snappy the whole time.”
“Gomen.” Kazuya apologised, and he really meant it, in more than one way.
Tomohisa shook his head. “It’s okay. I understand. I’m pretty nasty myself when I’m extremely tired, and I know I can occasionally be a pain in the ass in the mornings.”
Kazuya raised his eyebrows at the other’s choice of words. “Yes, you can be a total pain in the ass, almost all the time in fact.”
“Hm?” Tomohisa furrowed his eyebrows, before laughing out loud when he understood what Kazuya was implying. He broke into a grin. “But you love me anyway, don’t you?”
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Part Eight – Trust
Written 22.05.2007; Posted 01.08.2007
For the second day in a row, Jin had been dragged out of bed to have breakfast with his best friend. While he would normally agree to free breakfast, this was starting to get a bit disturbing for Jin. This time though, he didn’t have to prod Tomohisa.
“Were you mad at me when I started going out with Kazuya?”
Jin made a face. “No? Why are you asking me this all of a sudden?”
“Well, it’s just that, I never did ask if you were alright with the idea, did I? We’re best friends, and I should have probably been more sensitive towards your feelings. Instead, I simply went after Kazuya upon learning that you two had broken up.”
Jin rubbed his eyes. “Technically, we never really broke up.”
“What?”
“Well, when you asked all I said was that it’s almost as if he and I were not together at all considering how far apart we’ve grown. But technically, he and I never really said ‘it’s over’ to each other.” Jin shrugged as he yawned. He waited for his best friend’s reply, sipping on his coffee to try to keep himself awake.
“… I guess it makes sense now.”
“What makes sense?”
“I’m the one who’s the third party.”
“Huh? Pi, what the heck are you talking about?” Jin frowned. It took him awhile to figure out what Tomohisa was mumbling all about, putting together the weird, random conversations of these two mornings. “Oh, you think Kame’s cheating on you with me?”
“It’s not cheating if I’m the one who’s interfering right?”
“Okay, I’m not too sure what you’re rattling on about, but there’s nothing between Kame and I now.” Jin replied, slightly exasperated. “Yes, technically we didn’t break up in the normal way or whatever you call it, but we were becoming such strangers and there was no future for us. So no, I’m not mad at you for going out with him. And no, he’s not having an affair with me.”
“…”
“I’m telling you the truth… Really! You should know that I don’t like lies… You believe me, right?”
Obviously, Jin once again felt that there was no reason for him to add that it didn’t mean Kazuya wasn’t having an affair with someone else. It wasn’t a lie. He was just not volunteering additional information. Jin suddenly felt like the sky had suddenly darkened though, as if a storm was coming their way, as dramatic as it sounded.
“Yeah, I believe you… You’re my best friend after all… You wouldn’t hide anything from me, would you?”
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Part Nine – Afraid of Losing You
Written 11.06.2007; Posted 05.08.2007
Kazuya glanced at Yuichi as the two of them continued practising their dance routine. Strangely enough, the two of them had arrived an hour early for practice, and the others weren’t here yet. It was rare lately for them to be together, all alone, just the two of them, with no sex involved. The thought rather disturbed Kazuya. He didn’t want their relationship to be only on a physical level.
“Ne, let’s go on a date.” Kazuya said nonchalantly.
“Huh? Nani?!” Yuichi stopped dancing, turning to stare at Kazuya as if the younger boy had grown horns on his head.
“We’ve not gone on a date yet.” Kazuya stated, before adding. “And you’ve already been on a date with Akanishi.”
“That wasn’t a date. We were just hanging out.” Yuichi said, but Kazuya could tell he was lying. “And you know that we can’t possibly go on a date either.”
“Well no one else needs to know we’re on a date. To everyone else we’re just ‘hanging out’ as you like to put it.” Kazuya said bitterly.
“True, but… Kame, we need to be more careful.”
“Be careful of what?” Kazuya’s voice was tinged with impatience and annoyance. “It’s not like I’m asking you to hold my hand while we’re on the date or something. Though it’s not like you care whether the whole world can see you holding hands with Akanishi.”
“What?” Yuichi blinked, absorbing what Kazuya just said. How did the latter know about him holding hands with Jin? Although it was only once, and actually, it was more like Jin was pulling him around by the hand. Did Kazuya spot them? Was Kazuya jealous?
“You’re jealous.” Yuichi said, more as a statement than a question.
“Yes, I am! Of course I am!” Kazuya said, not bothering to deny it. “You’re always with him nowadays! You’re always doing something with him. You’re never hanging out with me anymore.”
He often became like that when he was around Yuichi, behaving like a spoilt child and throwing a tantrum, sometimes over nothing. But this wasn’t ‘nothing’. Yuichi was ‘hanging out’ with Jin, holding hands with Jin, doing everything with Jin that Yuichi would probably never do with Kazuya because Kazuya was ‘taken’.
Kazuya felt like he was losing Yuichi, and it made him even more upset that of all people, he was losing Yuichi to Jin.
“That’s because I have to do the project with him for 24-jikan, while you’re busy filming your drama.” Yuichi explained, trying to keep calm. “That’s why we don’t see each other as often.”
“Fine, then let’s go out on a date then. I’m off this Sunday.”
“I can’t. I’m busy.”
“What? Hanging out with Akanishi again?”
“No, I’m going out shopping with Masuda.” Yuichi replied, exasperated. “Could you stop bringing Jin into this argument?” He could understand why Kazuya was upset, but he really wished that the younger boy would stop making him feel guilty about spending time with Jin. It wasn’t as if he was involved in a romantic relationship with Jin. They were just hanging out as friends.
“Who says this is an argument? And why can’t I bring him into the conversation?”
“Because he has nothing to do with this- this thing that we have and I don’t even know what we’re doing anymore!”
Kazuya was taken aback by Yuichi’s sudden outburst. There was a moment of silence, before Kazuya spoke up. “So… you want to break up?”
“I- I didn’t say that.”
“Maybe you’ll be happier with Jin?” Kazuya’s voice was almost inaudible, and Yuichi couldn’t tell if it was a question or a statement.
“Like I said, don’t bring him into this. It has nothing to do with him.”
“Yes it does. I’m so screwed up now because of him. I wouldn’t have gotten together with Pi if it wasn’t because of him, if it wasn’t because I wanted to piss him off so bad. And if I’m not with Pi now, I can be with you and we wouldn’t have to worry about any damn thing.”
“…Or you might still be with Jin.”
Kazuya laughed at Yuichi’s comment. “That’s probably impossible.”
“Do you still love him?”
“What?” Kazuya was a little surprise. “…No.”
“You hesitated.” Yuichi smiled half-heartedly. “Maybe… maybe you aren’t jealous of Jin after all. Maybe you were just jealous of me.”
“What? I don’t understand-”
Before Kazuya could finish his sentence, the door to their practice room opened, as Tatsuya and Junnosuke strolled in and greeted them. Yuichi turned away from Kazuya, letting the argument end there, and going back to practising the dance steps.
Kazuya had that sick feeling in his stomach again. If he thought he was losing Yuichi, well he probably lost him completely now.
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Part Ten – Doubts
Written 15.06.2007; Posted 09.08.2007
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“This might sound rather strange, I must say, but…” Tatsuya began, pausing a bit to ponder before continuing his question to Yuichi, “…did you get into a fight with Kame or something?”
Trust Tatsuya to be observant enough to notice, as long as he wasn’t stuck in his own world which he often was. Knowing that it wasn’t something he could talk to Tatsuya about though, Yuichi just shook his head.
“Nah…”
Tatsuya looked at him for a few seconds, probably able to see that Yuichi wasn’t telling the truth, but contemplating whether to push the subject. In the end, he left it alone.
“Guess it was just my imagination then.” Tatsuya shrugged, walking off and deciding that Yuichi would have told him if he really wanted to.
Yuichi smiled, touched by his friend’s understanding. From the corner of his eye, he could see Kazuya seated on the floor, wet towel covering his head, and a drink bottle in his hand.
He never really liked getting into arguments. As Koki often said, Yuichi liked things to be peaceful, which was why only a few hours after his argument with Kazuya, Yuichi was already feeling guilty.
Kazuya had put doubts in his mind.
All this time, he assumed he was spending time with Jin merely as friends. But maybe Jin didn’t see it that way. Maybe even he didn’t see it that way, but just didn’t realise it.
“Is that supposed to be Bob Sap’s facial expression when he’s trying to think?”
A voice broke his thoughts. Yuichi just then realised that Jin was waving a hand in front of his face, and swatted the hand away.
“Of course not.”
“Really? I was so sure that it was.” Jin laughed. “Anyway, I thought I should let you know that it’s not safe for you to stand here daydreaming.”
“Why? It’s not like I’m going to walk into a pillar or something.”
No, but with that cute expression of yours you could be attacked by someone like me without knowing, Jin thought, but said otherwise. “The pillar might walk into you.”
“Baka! There’s no such thing as walking pillars!” Yuichi rolled his eyes as he whacked Jin on the head. Suddenly, he noticed Kazuya’s attention on them, eyes shooting daggers. “Jin, we’re just friends right?”
Jin blinked, obviously taken by surprise by the question popping out from the blue. “Eh… yeah, we are. Nande?”
“I just wanted to be sure.” Yuichi said, and added as Jin raised an eyebrow. “As in, just wanted to be sure that you, well, didn’t take things the, er, wrong way.”
Jin smiled half-heartedly. “You’re even more evil than I thought.” You’re practically rejecting me twice.
“Eh?”
“Nothing.” Jin shook his head. Pausing for a moment, Jin then indicated towards Kazuya’s direction. “Anyway, you’re sure it’s okay if you leave it like that? Though I don’t know what it’s all about…”
Yuichi glanced at Kazuya, who was covering his head with the towel once more. He sighed. “I don’t know what to do anymore.”
“Do…” Jin began, as he turned and started to walk away, before pausing in mid-step. “Do what your heart tells you to do.”
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Part Eleven – Fixing the Mess
Written 30.06.2007; Posted 13.08.2007
“Let’s break up.”
Kazuya said, after much contemplation.
He had thought long and hard about the whole situation, and knew that he had to fix this mess before it got any more complicated. If only he had been more mature, if only he had better control of his own feelings, this could have all been avoided.
Kazuya was mad at himself. When he thought about whom he truly loved the most, he found himself unsure. But he knew he had to choose.
With Tomohisa, it was purely one-sided at first. His feelings only grew over time, but sometimes, Kazuya wondered if it was only because he felt obligated to return those feelings.
With Yuichi, Kazuya had no idea when he had started falling in love with the other. It could have been the first time they kissed, albeit they were both drunk then. Or maybe it was since the very first time they met, waiting at the wrong venue on the first day after joining the jimusho. Maybe back then, he hadn’t realised because…
…There was Jin.
“Maybe… maybe you aren’t jealous of Jin after all. Maybe you were just jealous of me.”
Yuichi’s words repeated in his mind. He didn’t agree with what Yuichi said. Surely he had gotten over Jin? But then again, realising that he didn’t even have a clear idea as to who he loved, Kazuya wasn’t sure of himself anymore.
And so, to be fair to everyone else, he was going to put an end to the mess he created.
“Yamapi, let’s break up.”
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Part Twelve – Revenge
Written 30.06.2007; Posted 13.08.2007
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Having received an unexpected call from Tomohisa, Yuichi stepped into the bar, and immediately spotted the other at a booth. Two girls had draped themselves all over the younger man, who didn’t bother rejecting their advances.
“Yamapi.”
“Ah, Nakamaru, you’re finally here.” Tomohisa greeted as he indicated to the two girls to leave them alone for a while. He patted the now vacant space next to him. “Here. Sit over here.”
Yuichi hesitated, before sitting down next to the other, leaving a slight space in between. Tomohisa merely stared at him, looking up and down, making Yuichi feel extremely uncomfortable under the other’s gaze.
Had Tomohisa figured out everything? Was he going to get punched by the other? Yuichi knew he probably deserved it if that was the case.
After a moment of uncomfortable silence, Tomohisa finally spoke up.
“I just want to know, are you really good in bed?”
“Wh-What?” If Yuichi had been drinking something, he would have spit everything out in shock. That wasn’t what he expected Tomohisa to ask at all.
“I was just thinking… Since Kame picked you over me, you must be much better than me in bed.”
Yuichi blinked, as he took in what Tomohisa was saying. He was perturbed by the way Tomohisa made Kazuya sound like someone who chose lovers purely based on ability in bed. It irked him so much that he had a sudden urge to punch the younger man.
“You know, it’s got me really curious.” Tomohisa continued. “I would really like to find out.”
Before Yuichi realised, Tomohisa had closed the gap and placed his hand on Yuichi’s thigh, inching closer and closer to his crotch as Yuichi quickly moved away.
“Yamapi! You’re drunk!”
“Apparently, one can get away with anything while one’s drunk, huh?” Tomohisa snapped, as he moved his hand away. “After all, weren’t you two lovebirds drunk when you two hooked up?”
“I-” Yuichi was at a lost for words. How much did Kazuya tell the other man? He suddenly started to worry about how Kazuya was doing right now.
“Nakamaru, you might think you’ve won, but the truth is, we’re both losers.” Tomohisa’s voice broke Yuichi’s thoughts once more, his voice filled with bitterness. “Because in the end…”
In the end, what?
“In the end, he’ll pick Jin over either of us.”
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wow..this fic seems to have a lot of hm..complicated relationships between the characters….
^^
shizzu: You’re reading this? I would have thought no one would want to read this after my warning in the notes about it not being a happy fic. ^^;; I guess I’m weird in that despite it being Jin’s birthday, I decide to post up something complicated and sad instead of something more fluffy-happy instead.
ok..this is weird..my message is till not getting through…ok..this is wat i wanted to say…”do you expect me to totally over look a fic involving kame the cute turtle, and pretend it does not exist?? haha..well, as i said b4 that i dislike sad endings….so..i’ll probably start to hate you when you conclude the story..ahaha…”
shizzu: Eh, your message couldn’t get through properly because you used left/right arrows and wordpress tend to detect those as coding. I really should put a note somewhere near the comments form regarding this. *note to self*
You read anything and everything that has Kame? lol. It’s okay if you start to hate me as the fic nears the end, because I’m quite sure PiKame fans would hate me for this fic anyway. ^^;;
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I’m quite sure PiKame fans would hate me for this fic anyway
Hmm, let’s see about that *laughs*
Ah, but I’m confused now. This isn’t AU, is it? Cos for some unknown reason I always assumed it’d be AU when you told me about it o_O”
Mina: I don’t understand by what you mean by “let’s see about that” lol. And yes, it’s NOT AU this time. Am sick of writing AU at the moment. :DD