Title: Realize
Series: Love Song
Pairing: Yamapi x Kame, Yamapi x Jin
Author: J
Date: 15.10.2005
Notes: Nobuta is on tv in Japan now!! Yeah, anyway, more nonsense from me. Title from Melody’s Realize.
“You know, Kame is really someone you’ll take notice of.”
Yamapi looked up from his magazine, and followed Jin’s gaze towards where Kame was practising his dance moves in one corner of the room. He shrugged, looking away and turning back to his magazine. A while later, Jin spoke up again.
“I wonder what made Kame stop hanging out with us like in the past.”
Yamapi stopped himself from rolling his eyes. Jin said that a lot — even after about a year — as if the more he made that comment, the more likely he would figure out the answer. Usually, Yamapi would just shrug, not wanting to show any sign of jealousy. It wasn’t that he hated Kame. At least he liked Kame enough to hang out with him in the past. But somehow, they grew apart, at the same time that Kame and Jin grew apart. And Yamapi didn’t feel much of a loss, because in a way he was happier that he had Jin to himself. Though he would never admit that to Jin. Because he knew Jin’s head would grow big, and anyway, Jin was a very straight guy.
“Sometimes, friends grow apart.”
“But you and I are still best buddies.” Jin replied. “Hm, let’s ask Kame to join us when we go get ice cream later.”
Yamapi didn’t reply. It was not like he could say ‘no’. Jin had already made a decision, so there was no point objecting. Instead, he continued to read his magazine, though from the corner of his eye, he noticed Jin continuing to watch Kame practise. He tried not to scowl.
“So the fangirls were right? There’s something going on between the two of you?” Yamapi retorted.
“Don’t talk nonsense. I’m just concerned. Kame’s my baka companion yo.”
“Maybe he’s become smarter and decided he didn’t want to be your baka companion anymore.”
“Doesn’t that mean you aren’t really smart if you are still hanging out with me?”
“I’m more like the smart friend who makes sure his baka friend doesn’t cause any trouble.”
“I don’t cause trouble!”
“Whatever.”
“Baka Pi.” Jin glared at the other boy, when his attention was drawn away.
“Jin, I’m going home now. Ja ne.” Kame said, waving as he left. “Bye Yamapi.”
“Hey Kame! Wait!” Jin tried to stop the younger boy, but the latter had already disappeared. “Mou… When he’s going home he’s so not like ‘kame’ at all. Why’s he always such in a hurry to leave? Ah, it must be because he doesn’t want to see your face.”
“Sou, sou, he doesn’t want to see my face so he leaves in a hurry.” Yamapi rolled his eyes, throwing his magazine aside and getting up from his seat. He pulled Jin up, dragging him towards the door. “It’s time we go too. Your treat, for making me wait. Heh, heh, I’m gonna eat lots of ice cream today.”
“What do you mean my treat? Ah, nevermind, you’re just a greedy pig.”
“Pot calling the kettle black.”
* * * * *
When Yamapi was informed that he was going to do a drama with Kame, Kusano was probably happier than he was. He wasn’t upset. What was there to be upset about? At least it wasn’t Jin doing a drama with Kame again. It was more like, he didn’t quite know how to react. True, they used to be good friends, but nowadays, they don’t even talk much to each other. Yamapi felt that it was a rather awkward situation.
He was proven wrong though. It was almost as if those years of growing apart had vanished and Kame was Kame again. He was reminded of how hyper Kame could get sometimes, and how when Kame started talking, he almost never stopped. It was rather amusing, that Kame had changed so much and yet stayed the same. But it came as some sort of surprise when Kame told him in the interview about how he was in awe of Yamapi when he first saw him. And in every single interview they did, Kame never failed to compliment Yamapi about something.
Because of the drama, they started hanging out with each other more. They would even go out for dinner after work, and during breaks, they were often together too. When he saw Kame squatting there, eating, his legs moved on their own accord and he found himself squatting next to the other boy. Kame even willingly fed him a spoonful of his meal, which was delicious by the way, but then Yamapi started to wonder if Jin would get jealous.
The day he was supposed to meet Jin after work, Yamapi thought he might as well ask Kame along, and maybe that would make Jin happy. But Kame excused himself, saying he was tired, and Yamapi couldn’t help but feel like Kame was avoiding hanging out with both him and Jin together. But later he decided he was thinking too much. Kame really looked tired after all, and he wouldn’t want Kame to faint from exhaustion on the set the next day.
Months passed, and filming ended. And it was like a dream ended too.
Just like Shuji, who had different sides to him, it was like Kame had two sides to him too — one that was just like how he used to be when the three of them were together, and the other one that took pains to avoid Yamapi and Jin and hang out with other people instead. It made Yamapi feel slow, for not really noticing this odd behaviour of Kame’s until recently. After months of having the latter beside him for almost every minute of every day, Yamapi suddenly felt this strange emptiness that he never felt before.
“Hey, what are you doing there daydreaming?” Jin waved a hand in front of his face, before grabbing a slice of meat from Yamapi’s plate. Yamapi didn’t care. He wasn’t really in the mood. Jin chewed on the meat, staring at Yamapi, waiting for a reply, but none came. He sighed melodramatically, which finally caught Yamapi’s attention.
“What are you sighing for?”
“For your stupidity.”
“You mean your own stupidity.”
“Getting withdrawal symptoms?”
“Huh?”
“Not having Kame around, gushing about how good you are…”
“What? Jealous that he doesn’t say many good things about you?”
“Nah, he doesn’t gush that much about me cos he doesn’t like me that way.”
“… Huh?”
Jin sighed once more. “That’s why I tell other people that you aren’t that smart. Pity no one seems to believe me.”
* * * * *
Yamapi lay in his futon, cellphone in one hand as he stared up into the ceiling. He thought about what Jin had said. He had acted like he didn’t understand, but truth was, he sorta understood what his best friend was trying to say to him, and he knew that Jin knew it too.
He found that he wasn’t too surprised either by this ‘hint’ that Jin gave. Somehow, it was as if Yamapi knew all along that Kame had some sort of feelings for him. But he never really thought about it, and Kame never really did anything about it either. And it didn’t help that Kame stopped going out with the two of them, making him think that maybe Kame didn’t really like him that way after all.
Yamapi stared at his cellphone, Kame’s name across the screen. All he had to do was press the call button. It was only one ring before the call was picked up. He decided to jump straight to the point.
“Kame, can I ask you something?”
“Yamapi? Uh, yeah, sure.”
“Why did you suddenly stop going out with me and Jin?”
There was a pause on the other end. Yamapi waited for what seemed like infinity. “Yamapi, you like Jin right?”
He was startled. He didn’t expect Kame to ask him that, and he didn’t know how to answer the question either. Did he like Jin? Yes, right? Or was it a ‘used to’ now? As Yamapi contemplated his answer, he thought about how nowadays, he actually wished he was out with Kame instead of Jin. Did that mean anything? Or was it just because he got so used to having Kame around during the time they were filming their drama that he was experiencing ‘withdrawal symptoms’ of some sort?
“Hello? Yamapi? Are you still there?”
“Ah… yeah…”
“Gomen, you don’t have to answer that question if you don’t want to. Though I think I know the answer anyway.”
Kame knows the answer? It was funny, cos now Yamapi didn’t know the answer to that question anymore. “And what do you think is the answer?”
“Eh?”
“You said you know the answer to the question you asked me. So I was just wondeirng what you think the answer is.”
“… Yamapi likes Jin.”
Are you sure? Because I’m not sure anymore… “Even if that’s the answer, you still haven’t answered my question.”
“That is the answer.”
“Huh? What do you mean?” Yamapi pondered, trying to put two and two together. “You decided not to hang out with me and Jin… because you think I like Jin?”
“It’s the truth isn’t it?” Kame chuckled. “And you didn’t really like the fact that Jin and I got to do a lot of things together. So I thought I should help Yamapi, and make myself not be so much of a lamp post.” Kame laughed, though Yamapi felt that the laughter sounded forced.
“Yeah…”
“So anyway, I’m dead tired and I’m going to bed. Oyasumi.”
The line went dead before Yamapi could stop the other boy. Yamapi pouted, before redialling.
“Ano… that’s very rude of you to just hang up on me like that.”
“Ah, gomen gomen. I thought there was nothing else to say anyway and I was going to sleep.”
“Who says that there’s nothing else to say? I haven’t even finished what I was saying before you interrupted and hung up.”
“Ah, gomen na. So eh, what else did you want to say?”
“I wanted to say, that you were right, that I did like Jin, and that I did get a bit jealous that you two got to do a lot of things together.”
“Ah, that’s it?”
“No.. lemme finish before interrupting.”
“Sorry.”
“Anyway, what I want to say is, that was then. I don’t like Jin in that way anymore, I think. So you can stop avoiding us and worrying about making me upset.”
“Oh…”
“And one more thing…”
“Yeah?”
“Actually, you not being around makes me upset.”
“…”
“So from now on, I don’t care whether you’re tired or whatever, you better go out with me when I ask you to, with or without Jin, or I’ll get mad at you. Okay, now I’ve finished what I wanted to say. You can go and sleep now. Oyasumi.”
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@REALISE
i read your fic haahah, awww it was awesome! but i wanted kame to reply instead of pi saying the last line lolz
nice nice nice XD
@TAKE A CHANCE
awww
yes you left me hanginn in Realize, thank god you made this continuation ^0^
hahhh i love it in kame’s POV b/c of his funny thoughts…
somehow i knew jin wasn’t going to pay his dinner… haha
@TAKE A CHANCE
I like how you plan on killing the world population with you fanfiction. Remind me to haunt you when my dying stops okay?
IAJSAJSLAJSAKJSAILOVEYOULAKJSLKAJSLKAS.
And suddenly, your title makes me think ABBA, but I’m sure PC don’t listen to ABBA maybe, so that just might be me.
@TAKE A CHANCE
just passed your site, and read your fanfic~~ is reallly nice, looking forward for the next chapter~~~ gambatte!
@TAKE A CHANCE
Aaaaah, for once I’ve been offline for some days in a row and now you’ve posted a sequel all of the sudden! *O* (maybe I should do so more often instead of bothering you all the time if we get to read more of your fics this way ^____^ *laughs*)
Do I need to tell you how much I love you for continuing this fic? (or writing more about those two in general?)
It’s so cute that you’ve decided to write about Kame’s thoughts on the entire situation this time ^__^ Guess it’s only reasonable he’d be rather confused with the recent turn of action. At least I’d be confused for sure! *lol*
When I saw you’ve brought in Jin as well this time, I was afraid he might get in between Kame and Pi, be it on purpose or not, but thank god that Bakanishi was being unusually insightful after all and left at the right time (even though the others had to pay for his kindness – in the literal sense *lol*)
Not that I’d mind some drama ’caused by Jin’s interferance either (I’m a sucker for drama *lol*) but getting Kame and Pi to finally end up together is sooo much better ^___^ Therefore we can only pray Yamapi truely managed to rid Kame of all his doubts with this sweet kiss at the end *O*
And now you may kick me for hoping there might be yet another continuation of this fic some time in the future ^.^~
@DISTANCE
……….T________T
baka yamapi..makes kame feeling so left out nad had to leave and never turn his head back >__